Some People ¬_¬

Some people just don't seem to think about their actions.

That or they do but they don't seem to understand that it has an impact on other people as well as them self.

I know that a few of you that read this will see this as a dig at you, but the only reason you would see this as a dig would be if you think that something you did or do causes me to get to a stage where I have to vent about people like you causing my mind to want to explode.

I won't go into too much detail as its not really needed, all you need to know is that this blog was designed for me to express the ways in which my brain works.
It is not here to be a 100% perfect answer to problems, and its not going to have things that are 100% true and possible..


For example I could say "Wouldn't it be awesome if we could get the DNA from the largest bird in the world and mutate that DNA so that we could link it with ours thus allowing a human to have wings."

The above sentence could be possible or not.
Whether it is or not is irrelevant, the whole point it was typed up onto this page for you to read is because its something that went through my mind, and so I blogged about it so that you can understand how my mind thinks and works..

The sentence is not there for people to troll and state facts as to why it wont ever happen..

If this blog was for that then I would have looked into all the facts first before posting, and stated that it is or is not possible due to X, Y and Z.
(If I wanted to post something and have it shat all over and be called stupid, I would have posted on 4Chan and been called a "candy-ass newfag" for not posting something that has 100% facts to back it up ¬_¬)

This takes me to my point..

Its not just people who post on blogs in a trollish manor to try and make the other people around them seem stupid..This ramble...or should I say dig... is aimed at all those people that just have to be better at everything than everyone else even if their not.

You people make me sick!!

I may sound like I'm trying to make myself sound better than all of you however I have flaws..
This I accept.

My spelling sucks ass, my vocabulary is limited due to this (bad spelling caused me to type shorter and easier words)
Yes I could use a dictionary/spell check or a thesaurus but what good is that to me when my mind just doesn't learn the spelling of the word I need.
I see it there, I know what it is and what it looks like, but remove the word and I'm screwed at trying to re spell it.

So yeah my spelling is shit, I need glasses, I can't seem to understand peoples emotions through empathy as well as others can due to thinking logically, I have issues when it comes to doing things that are hard to understand, I think too much about everything, I don't fit in with "the norm"
These are some of the "minor" flaws I have but they are flaws nonetheless..

But you people that have to try and be better than us all are fucking stupid.
Can't you see that by having to point out the flaws in everyones work and thoughts is just one of your many flaws?
Maybe for once rather than pointing out why people are stupid and always wrong you should just say something like
"I don't agree but I like your thoughts"?

I mean how would you like if if everything you said no matter how stupid or smart you thought it was, what if it was torn up in your face spat on and someone said thats a fucking stupid thought for all these reasons....

It would anger you would it not?

Im all for people trying to help others out and expand their knowledge but come on.. shitting on EVERYTHING they say or think?
Why?

I make this mistake on odd occasions I admit.. Not too long ago I pissed off a friend by modding their minecraft work when I thought I was helping. Turns out I wasn't and they thought I was shitting all over their work.
A simple misunderstanding but something that frustrated us both.


To have that issue with every comment you make is beyond frustrating... its almost worthy of a lash out.

So to all of you that just have to have the last (correct) word, and for all those that "are never wrong"..
Please for the love of god think before you shit on people's comments...


I expect the haters to hate in time.. but remember "This entry contains my thoughts, if you honestly dare to read it and manage to understand all that I have explained in this post, try to remember that we all have random and crazy thoughts in our head and that we should not be judged by them but rather the actions we make because of them."

Evolution Of Ideas

I was thinking today that its quite amusing that you can never have a idea that stays set.

You see an idea is one of those things that just like life it seems to evolve over time.
Sometimes it changes for the better other times for the worse, but its a always changing thing.

For example:
If you ever had a idea for a game or a book, it would have taken you minutes to have come up with the idea, however as you think about the game/book the story that you had for it will grow/change/evolve into something either better or worse.

Now this got me thinking..

Im all in support of Anonymous and their idea of "Freedom Of Speech" but seeing as this is an Idea we come to that fork in the road where it will want to evolve.
You see many people hear the idea and have their own ideas that they want to add to it. The popular one being listened to and many agreeing on and the not so popular ones being frowned upon.
Either way the starting point of the idea has changed some what.

So where does the change end?

When I have an idea I usually spend some time mastering it or letting it grow naturally. This happens for some time and then I ether finish doing most of what I had planned thus saying that I have completed my idea, OR I end up getting a little way through it and abandoning it all together.

But with a Idea wits as many people as there are behind Anonymous, where will it end and stop changing?

As it is we (sorry Anon) have loads of sub Operations, and these are just new ideas thrown into the original plan to apparently help with the main idea of freedom of speech. Now this is all well and good, but how long until a new idea gets thrown in that people agree with that's no longer following the same main idea of freedom of speech.. EG. Make drugs legal ¬_¬

So Ideas although a great thing, they would be better if you could actually put a boundary on them so they can not expand any more than needed. Thus allowing you to finish off an idea and complete it without it expanding into something completely different.

So its been awhile...

Ok so other than the post a few days ago that was actually a convo I had had with some friends back in October (I think), I haven't really posted anything new.

Bit of a shame really seeing as I have had so many things go through my head over the past few months that I really should have blogged about them.

One of the major topics that people have been talking about is the world ending in 2012. Now although I do find it slightly interesting, I also find peoples views on it extremely stupid or annoying.
Here's a few things that grab my attention about the 2012 world ending topic and my views on it.

1. OK first thing first. Say the world is going to end on the date they stated and everything is true...
Well that leads me to one thing. IF it is all true, we don't actually know until it happens, or starts showing some serious effects like a commit or a shite load of floods. So by that time it would most likely be too late to do whatever you wanted to do with you life. (Awww what a shame) however if we are all going to die then why panic?

That's the main thing that confuses me.  O_o

I mean you know you're going to die, its not like anything you can do will change it so why start panicking about the fact that you are going to die? Sure you could have had a longer life and done more with it and its a bit shitty that now you can't but why when its inevitable start worrying and panicking about it..? You cant change it?

This leads me into my second point...

2. My second point is this.. If I say to you I bet you £1,000,000 that we will live through it then I win.

Fact is you only have to pay me if I win and we all live, however if we all die then you in and I owe you £1,000,000.. but wait a second we're all dead.. so I can't pay you and you don't need it.
To if you want something to happen then say to someone "If we all are still alive after 2012 then X all the Y" This means that you could say anything and you get it ;)

3. Like hell are we going to die in 2012. Ok I have to admit that there have been a load of bad things happening to the planet over the past few years however that doesn't mean that the world is ending. It just means that shits going down. In all honesty anything could happen.. the ice caps could melt, the world could become too warm and loads of changes to the planet could happen... but this doesn't mean the end of the world ¬_¬

4. The most obvious point of it all... We will die on day X of month X of year Y.
This has to be the biggest load of crap ever in existence.. (wait I correct myself there.. some people believe in god). Sure the mayans had a calendar that ended on the day they state the world will end. but their callender couldn't go on for infinity, so it was bound to end at some point.. even if it was in another 100 years it would HAVE to end some day.. That doesn't mean that on that day we will die.

I heard about this Neberu planet (or something like that) and how its heading towards earth and we will have 3 days of night.. I have to admit after watching plenty of videos my interest peaked.. I thought it was a awesome idea, very well thought out and would be awesome to see.. but the  major flaw is when they link it to the world ending... IF it exists then sure it could give us 3 days of nights if it passes between us and the sun.. sure it could tilt our axis, but to end the world on the same day as predicted.. I think not.

My final point (although I have many more) to stop my rambling... is this.

5. ¬_¬ if the world is going to end on x,x,2012 and the mayans predicted this then we must be off by a long shot.. seeing as back in the day ( :P ) the mayans would have had a different way of keeping time.. For example we used to have 13 months back when the romans were about.. We also didn't always have daylight savings... There is also a extra day every 4 years. Did they take all those factors into account?


All in All I can't see the world ending in 2012.. It just seems improbable to almost an impossible state.

but hey If we do die on that day I'll buy you all a pint ;)

How to get True Random...

Hey again everyone.. time for a complex post..
How can you get a random value?????

Well firstly what is random?

Random = Something that isn't stored then accessed but rather is just there and used for what ever reason it may be.

Problem:
Nothing is truly random not even the thoughts that run through your mind!
If for example I say think of a animal, you will think of a animal based on the things that lead up to that point in time.


For example.. Say you thought of a "Cat" at first because you like them or you can see one sitting not far from you now, or you saw one earlier that day.
However you then changed your mind about the "Cat" and changed your animal to a dog then thought of a lion then a tiger and then for some reason a donkey, and you decided to stick with a donkey.
You now feel that your chosen animal is completely random

Reason why you chose that final animal:
We know why you chose "Cat" to start off with because you like them or you can see one sitting not far from you now, or you saw one earlier that day, but you changed your thought to dog because its different from a "Cat" but it also links in with you though of a "Cat".
They are both pets they are both common, if anything its the exact same group of choices.. eg cat, dog, fish, bird but its the one that fits in best with your first thought of "Cat"

The perfect job.

Hey guys.

Again, I had another boring day at work... and all I could think about was this government idea and how amazing it would be to work for them...

As my mind does its usual and over thinks things I started to wonder what I would do, and then it came to me.

With the way I think and the way I can learn new things rapidly, surely the best place for me to be working would be in SIS or MI6. My brain was built to learn create solve problems and never stop thinking so working for the SIS would be a perfect job.
I would never have a bored moment and I could finally put my brains talent to good use.

Problem is there is no way in hell I would ever be able to get into the SIS =[

Thought about it lots and seeing as I don't have the quals the only other way in would be to stand out from everyone else.. now how the hell could you do that and grab their attention at the same time ;) hmmm I wonder lol.



So many people will be wondering why the hell I would want to do this, but I am seriously thinking of joining the RAF.

Not to run about with gus and what not, but my mind seriously is going to waste stacking shelves when it could be problem solving and working in IT while getting a great life learning experience.

IF I do go for it I'll start off as an Intelligence Operative where I'll get...

Level 2 NVQ Administration
Degree in Security Management
Degree in Intelligence

You should be interested or have experience in:
Combat - (Not so much but learning to protect yourself is always handy)
Computing / IT - (That's a bit of a obvious thing I'm interested in and have loads of exp in.)
Clerical Administration - (Comes in handy in nearly everything you do.)
Investigation & Research - (Perfect thing to get my mind thinking and actually working for a change)
Security - (Making things secure and trying to break security has been a hobby of mine for a while now :P)



Then I'll move on to being a Counter Intelligence Operative.

You should be interested or have experience in:
Computing / IT - (Again something I'm always interested in)
Forensics - (Not so much interested in unless it involves forensics of computers.. recovering data etc)
Telecommunication - (Handy to know how to broadcast information and understand how it all works.)
Communication Engineering - (Again quite handy to know in the computer side of things (Sending and receiving data))
Clerical Administration - (Useful in many jobs)
Investigation & Research - (Again its a perfect thing to get my mind thinking and actually working for a change)
Security - (Again making things secure and trying to break security has been a hobby of mine for a while now :P)



No idea how long it would take but reading through it has given me the chance to find that job where I can actually put my brain to use.

Not only this but as far fetched as it sounds.. it may just work in my favor of being spotted for something in SIS or MI6.
Right?

Time And How It Exists. (Updated)

My mind likes to think about all sorts of things. It mainly likes to think of things that aren't facts so that my mind can wander town pathways of the unknown.


Lately I have been trying to work on a few theories that pop into my head quite a lot. One of these theories is the theory of time and how does such a thing exist.

Here is what confuses me...

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TIME EXPLAINED:

Wiki describes time as this: Time is a dimension in which events can be ordered from the past through the present into the future,and also the measure of durations of events and the intervals between them.

So in short.
Time = A measurement of change/events.

EXAMPLE:

X changes to Y over time.
This is an event that took place and Time is merely how we recorded it.

Because X changed to Y, it must have some form of movement.

If there was no movement at all it would not be able to change from X to Y.
(Movement is a form of energy)

So based on this, Time exists because of movement...
Without movement, nothing would change...
Therefor we would not need to record it/measure it.

Seduction...

Was doing some reading of my old notes and thought this was quite interesting...

• Overt Seduction: Pouting lips and puppy dog eyes, soft kisses and touches around the neck, chest and groin area, whispering sweetly in his ear how much she wants him and how she knows he wants her too.

• Power Seduction: The partner simply pulls her man away from whatever he is doing and starts to undress him, while pushing him towards the nearest comfortable area for lovemaking. This would be followed by her climbing on top and telling him what she is going to do to him. She would, of course, tolerate no arguments!

• Covert Seduction: Using false pretenses to lure her partner into a lovemaking situation. Ideas for this seduction include this one:

• "Go into your backyard on a chilly fall day and begin raking the leaves in a pile. Summon your mate to hold the bag open and then tell him to close his eyes. Then start putting articles of clothing in the bag and lay down in the leaves after you are naked. When you are in a seductive position, tell him to open his eyes for a big surprise."

• Damsel In Distress Seduction: Call your mate into the bedroom to help you with something urgent. Once he has "rescued" you, reward him handsomely for his brave gallantry.

• Classic Seduction: The Sensual Massage. The first step in giving a seductive massage is to identify the pleasure points on your partner's body. For example, the back of the neck, lower back and feet are the main pleasure points. The pleasure points are, however, different for everybody and the time spent researching what gives your partner maximum pleasure, is time that will be well rewarded later on.

A successful seduction entails one partner taking charge of the situation and using any means necessary to lure, not force, her man away from what he is doing, and into the bedroom.

Am I going crazy?!?

We all have those thoughts that make us wonder if people will ever understand us if we tried to explain it to them, or will they just think that we are crazy.

Well lately I'm starting to wonder how the hell I'm aloud out and about.

While being at work for the past 2 days, I have had to work 10 hour shifts from 9PM to 7AM on both occasions.
Now seeing as my job is really boring and rather repetitive I end up thinking about loads of things that seem either crazy, stupid, mad or just way too complex.

I'm starting to wonder if its going to send me crazy.

Most people could do my job and just get on with it without any problems. However because my brain works over time as it is, it decides that because it doesn't have to focus on anything but a simple task it will use the rest of its potential to think about something extreme. Its kinda worrying.

Here is an example...
Could I possibly come up and design a mega computer virus that could wipe out everything and anything but that can also restore everything with the antidote.. then after creating this could I bargain with the government over it so as to be able to work for them and then they can have it for a cost..

Now this sounds stupid but I found a perfect way of creating it doing it and making it all work.. Now I'm going to explain it on here for two reasons.. for one I'm curious to see what peoples responses are and for two, well lets just say I'm curious ;P

Firstly I need a virus that is unstoppable.
To do this it would have to firstly be created in basic computer language. Not in C++ or C# or anything that needs a compiler as it won't run on its own.
It would need to be built so basically that no matter what OS you are running even if you had built your own, the virus would have to be built to still run.
(Thus the fact that you would have to set it to be built in the very basic of computer code.)
Something that all computers components could read and execute some how. (maybe even create 1 virus that has a few different types of the code that are all stored on one bit of hardware and run depending on what OS?

Secondly what should it do and how?
Now we can create something that runs on all computer based things (Cars, phones, laptops, TV's), we need it to now save itself to the system so that it is to not require it to still have a pen drive plugged in etc.
So rather than copy to a HDD that only runs when used.
It should copy to anything that holds data.. ANYTHING!
This means:
CPU cache, Memory sticks, HDD's, Graphics card Memory... anything that stores info

It is now on everything, but saved differently depending on what its saved on.
So for example, if it's saved to the CPU cache its saved in a way that is read/processed by something that reads CPU code.
This means that if you want to save the data on the HDD you would have to plug the HDD into another computer and that too becomes infected.. even if you use the CPU or anything..
Basically the whole PC becomes useless...
(Sorry if I now seem off track.. had a rather large post on a topic about my last post to reply to lol)

Right.. erm...
Okay.. so the virus is now everywhere and can't be deleted unless your format all the info too all 0's or all 1's.
However to do this you need it plugged into a computer that works.. so this isn't possible.. it will just keep spreading..

Thing is, it doesn't do anything at the moment. It sits there and copies its self everywhere.
So the next thing you want to do is make sure it's at the start up of everything.. if you can set it to memory address 00,00,00,00 so when the memory gets read, the first thing it reads is your code.

The first part of the data/code should run the rest of it thus starting up your virus.
You now make the virus encode all of the data on the chip it's saved to.
You make the code impossible to crack by using the data stored on the actual chip to encode it.. basically say you have a chip called "x11c3 express" you use that string value to create an encryption code value thing lol..
This is used to encode the data.. you will however need to save the "x11c3 express" string as part of the virus, but again encoded with this time a default code. So now it reads "1ddjh bubbles" or something..

The data is now completely unreadable and unrecoverable unless you can decrypt.. problem is if you try to decrypt then whatever you're using will have to access the computer and will then become infected.

So this computer/mobile/car is useless.. and won't do anything.


How do you fix it?

Well what you do is in the actual virus you code it to read from a memory location first.. for example. read location 00,00,00,89 first then read from 00,00,00,00 onwards.

what this will do is allow you to have something in that memory address that gets read first.

So say you have the anti dote on a pendrive and at location 00,00,00,89 you have a string that ses KillerBeeAntidote, the virus will read this and know not to infect the pendrive.

Now that the pendrive doesn't get infected the computer will still read the code on the pendrive... think of the pendrive as a portable OS, on this OS is the program needed to fix it.

The virus sees that its not to be encoded and so doesnt tamper with it. the pendrive should run on its own without help. what it will do is read the memory on the chips. if it finds the virus on 00,00,00,00 then it will read the encoded "1ddjh bubbles" string and will then know how to decode the data.

So you decode the data and then save it from getting the virus from the other hardware by adding a small file on the chip at location 00,00,00,89.

This means that the HDD can be decoded by the pen drive that runs on its own and then gets given a antibody in effect that keeps it from getting infected.

What you do is allow the pendrive to scan ALL of the hardware on the computer/phone and allow it to remove the virus completely and decode. Once thats done the antibody files are removed..


Your computer is now back to normal and 100% like it was before the virus showed up.


How its useful:
Now you see this idea could easily be used by the government as a weapon that doesn't cause deaths.. forget wars with missiles.. they kill people.
Instead you could code this baby so that it only infects things that are located within an area of the globe, thus causing it to spread throughout only that area and shutting down their entire computer network.. no banks, no info, no lights on roads.. nothing.. they can't even use weapons to fire at you.

You tell them that they should mend their ways and then you can give them the antidote..

This could be used on terrorists too.. you use it on them.. they are helpless.. no cameras nothing.
You storm in take their stuff decode it with the antidote and you have all their info on everything.. eg where bad people are hiding etc.


Conclusion...
Its something I don't think I should of posted but this is what goes through my head everyday... surely there is a way to make use of my mind.. working in a store isn't putting me to my full limit.
Or maybe I'm just going mad and thinking about silly things that will never happen. O_O
who knows..


UPDATE: I realize that this wont work.. due to the way computers work reading code on chips and shit, however like my warning states.. this was just a cool thought that I had.
If there was some way of doing something "Like" this though, then it would be a serious virus!
May think on this a bit more at a later date.

God.... How it's all wrong.

I KNOW ITS A LOT TO READ BUT IT IS WORTH IT

Feel free to have your say on this after reading it.. I would love to get loads of input on this

I was reading a few posts from people who seriously believe in God, and suddenly the thought actually dawned on me that they are serious, and honestly believe this stuff so much that they would do anything they were told as long as it came from the word (Mouth) of God.

Now I don't hate people that believe in god.
I honestly believe that everyone is entitled to their own opinion; however I seriously can't see how people can believe that strongly about a being that’s so flawed.



I guess, if you had to, you could call me a skeptic-agnostic.
I do not follow or hate God, but I'm not an atheist either, they believe God does not exist.
There is no doubt in their mind.
If there is, they are unknowingly agnostic.

I especially don't believe that we (human-beings) are Gods nor perfect.
Far from it.
I believe we are desperately scared, thus delusional, selfish, pervert little creatures, but that we can change! We can evolve.

Now I’m not here to tell you that all people who believe in god are wrong but I have some interesting facts that if at all possible I would like a believer to argue about and honestly try to prove me wrong.
(Keep in mind that this is not a post created to spite others or cause arguments, but rather a "healthy" debate)

The first major point that I will agree on is the fact that “IF” God does exist then you have to agree that he is All-Loving, All-Knowing and All-Powerful (ALAKAP).

The reason I say this is because every religion gives their god these attributes.
If you don't believe me then look it up, and to be fair it does seem a logical thing for a god to be.
If he didn't have all these attributes then I personally wouldn't call him a god.

Anyway I'm sure that as we ALL agree with the above statement we can continue with the facts.

• QUESTION: Is God omniscient (All-knowing)?

Well as you know we have already agreed that god is all knowing. If he wasn't then he wouldn’t be the god that everyone describes him to be.
Many people argue that he is, so for arguments sake I will agree and say God "should be" all knowing.

• PROBLEM: If God is all knowing then why does it seem like he isn’t?

Now what I mean by this is simple. (stay with me here)

God apparently knows “EVERYTHING”.
Yet he still gives us humans tests.

Let me explain:
He created Adam and Eve placed them in the Garden of Eden which had a fruit that they shouldn't eat.

Now why put that fruit there if he wasn't testing them?

He’s god, so he didn't say “Oh it seems I'm running out of room so I suppose I better plant this tree in the garden”
He placed it there for some other reason.
The reason has to be to test his creations. (What other reason could there be?) <- [Feel free to discuss this]

Now the reason any test is done is to find out the result.
We will say "If I do this, then that will happen", but we test it just to make sure.
(This is because we doubt it slightly)
If we didn't doubt it then we wouldn't test it in the first place because we would just know it to be true.

Example: I buy a new battery from a shop.
I take it out of its new box and use it. I didn't test it because I knew it would work.
(On the other hand)
I find a box of batteries in my house, I test them all because I “Don’t know” if any of them work.

So why would an all knowing God have to test Adam and Eve with the fruit?
We know that “IF” they didn't eat the fruit they would have stayed in the garden but “IF” they did eat it they would be kicked out of it.

So why would God have a scenario with two different outcomes?
If he knew what was going to happen why say this could happen OR that and then test them to see what actually will happen?

He must have doubted them slightly on what they would do with it, and to doubt something is to not know.

Hmmmm.. okay you might have a argument to that and Id like to hear it but first please read on.


Now we say he’s all knowing.
This means he knows EVERYTHING that’s happened, happening and will ever happen.

So he knows that if he places that tree with the fruit in that garden, then he knows that Eve “Will” eat it.

He's supposed to know anything anyone will do before they're even born/created.
He knows the past, present, future (because time is meaningless for him and because he is the one deciding of the course of the future) he also knows all your actions and thoughts…
HE KNOWS it ALL, right?

This means he knew Eve would eat the fruit.

Now many of you would say that we were given free will.

Okay, I like the sounds of that, sounds nice doesn't it, and to be honest even if we had free will God should still know every possible outcome right? I mean he is god.

So we have free will to do anything we please but God knows what we will do when faced with a situation.

For example:
He knows that a true believer will follow his word.
So If he said to the pope, “The planet is becoming over populated and I will have to remove half of you in order for you believers to live, but don’t worry I will only remove sinners”, he knows that the pope would be fine with that, he also knows what exact words he would have to use to get the outcome he wanted.

Perfect example is this:

• I flip a coin and "I know its going to be heads", so I shout “heads”.
• I also know that in 3 more flips of that coin it will be tails.

I say to you that I will have the last cookie if the 3rd flip from now is tails.
The coin gets flipped 3 times and its tails.
So now I have the cookie.

Now anyone that fully understands what I have just said will realize that with the ability of being all knowing you can do one thing that will assure the outcome you want.

So when god created the world and birds and light and sea, he would have created it how he wanted it to be.
Now he knew that if he made things in such a way he would then reach a stage where the future would play out how he wanted it to.

Every “free will” action you make only happens because you made that choice.
BUT you made that choice based on your previous experiences, and they happened because of things before them.
Ultimately ending up with your choice being a result of something that happened when god first created it.

So really it wasn't your choice.
You were forced to do that because what god did all those years ago made you do what you did.

If you don't understand that then try and picture this.
I child is born and will learn to talk.
The language he/she will speak is already chosen for them based on where they were born or the language of the family.
It personally doesn't have a choice.
This will then effect EVERYTHING it does in its future.



Now by this stage I have pointed out a few basic things.

God knew that if we had free will and placed that tree there we would eat the fruit, or not(They were our choices).
If the test was a test, then he isn't all knowing as he doubted the outcome (Thus he’s not actually a god).
If the test wasn't a test then he placed that tree there for a reason knowing we would eat it (Thus we have no free choice).

So.. so far we have a choice.
You can have a god that’s all knowing but we have no free will
OR
You can have free will but god doesn't know everything.
Hmmmm…


Okay.
So…

• QUESTION: Is god all loving?

Now from following the first problem we now have a few out comes and I'll talk about that in a second.

Firstly Evil…
We all know that evil exists.
Now my first question is why does it exist.

Surely “IF” god is all loving he wouldn't allow it to exist in the first place.
“IF” the reason we have evil is because we have free will and we chose to be evil then why create us with the ability to make evil choices in the first place.

God is the creator.
Not evil.
So he created us with evil inside us?
Why?

Why create something with evil if you’re not evil yourself?
Unless it was a mistake, but shouldn't he of known about the mistake and how evil will become so bad.
Remember he’s all knowing right…

So he knew that creating us with an option to be evil will eventually cause evil to grow.
But he’s all loving so why allow it to grow.


Surely “IF” he is really all loving he wouldn't have thrown us out of the garden and should have forgiven us because he knew that by placing that tree there we would eat the fruit.
Better yet, all you people that believe and worship him.. even the pope, why are you not thanked, why are you still surrounded by evil, shouldn't he remove you from this place and be loving and caring, why allow you to suffer. (Jesus suffered for your sins… so why do you still suffer?)

“IF” we have free will, and God tested and knew our outcome then he is evil by putting that fruit there and allowing us to eat it when he clearly didn't want us to.
He is then also evil for sending us to such a horrible place for doing something he know we would do anyway.

He even sent the evil snake into the garden to tempt them to eat the fruit.
(The evil that he must have created).
So knowing all of this and creating this evil, did he want Adam and Eve out of the garden?
He knew the snake would tempt them and he knew that with the fruit and snake they would end up kicked out.
He must have wanted to banish them, so much for all loving.




More?


Some Christians say:
“God knows the laws of nature perfectly so he created us in a way that suits us perfectly.” Thus the reason we have flaws and evil and “aren't perfect”. We are like we are because he made us to fit in with the laws of nature…

Well that’s a fail.
I’m sorry but why give us these evil thoughts and imperfections to fit the laws of nature when he created nature in the first place.
Why not change nature so we didn't need these thoughts etc.

Even if god had created us to fit into this world with the laws of nature why did he then create us knowing that we couldn't (or even WOULDN'T) abide by all of his rules?
It’s simply IMPOSSIBLE to any human-being to be righteous, to follow ALL the rules and NEVER SIN, to be PERFECT.
Does that seem All-loving to you?

I could ramble on for more about how he isn't all powerful otherwise he would remove all evil from the world seeing as he’s all loving and because he hasn't removed all evil he is ether not all powerful, or he is not all loving.

Seriously the list goes on for ages and I can’t see how people can believe in this other than the fact that they don’t want to feel alone.

Then again you have friends and family, how can you feel alone. If you need there to be something else then why???

I know I might of upset some people but I really don’t understand why things are looked at in such a narrow minded vision.
Again I am not having ago at the believers and If anything I would like them to even post their views and discuss this.
Because in all honestly to me god just seems to unbelievable to be true based on the facts and notes that even the believers state to us all.






Now I posted the above on my facebook to see what the responses were and well these are some of them.

Jack:
Everything I've ever thought about this, ever, summed up in one long essay thing.
One thing I'd like to point out-
"So he knows that if he places that tree with the fruit in that garden, then he knows that Eve “Will” eat it."
He also knows that if he sends his most loyal servant to the top of a mountain to sacrifice his son, they will unquestioningly follow it through. But he still did that anyway.
The reason people believe in God are-
- They don't like to believe that when they die, thats it.
- They cannot accept their lives are insignificant in the grand scheme of things.
- They lack direction in life.

Me:
Here is another valid point.. We all live out life differently. I for one may commit sin every now and again, but then honestly can you name some one that doesn't?
Now ok I admit i commit a few sins here and there but I dont worry about it as they are only small things, some are greater than others but at the end of the day they are all sins. But I dont let fear of these sins rule my life.
It seems that rather than him being all loving, you actually end up fearing him, you dont want to upset him or sin and are living your whole life in constant fear.. (Argument might be, I am not afraid as I know god loves me and as I follow him he will protect me from sin) my reply would be.. sure ok... so why is it that the only reason you dont sin is so that you can get into heaven and not hell.. surely he should be all loving and allow you to just live your life.. why so many rules god? God would just be one of those mothers that doesn't allow the child to go to party's and make friends.. "Sorry I dont want you doing that and if you do ill punish you.." sorry but I would rather life my life rather than have to miss out on so many things just because someone tells me its bad.

Nathan:
Well in my opinion gods just like a Chinese whisper, I doubt he created us of even exist but we all know that everything we assume we know isn't all true.... to be honest I could just imagine someone dying and their being a big fat slob eating doughnuts and going " oh im god, now can you please get me some more doughnuts, one more thing welcome to my heaven"

Me:
I think what your saying.. correct me if I'm wrong.. is that over the thousands of years, this story of a god has been changed from what it once was to what we "believe" today.
So for all we know god could of been some powerful king who had this book wrote about him... Like you say Chinese whispers. the story could of been about a king but over the years the story has bee told in so many different ways that we now say god.
This would explain why there are many bibles and how come they are similar but different. Its like this.. I tell you a joke with a punch line.. you tell your friend the same joke but one word is different. the joke keeps getting told until eventually its completely different.

Jack:
It's a huge convoluted load of crap that over complicates things without any valid explanation or justification.
Stick to science, at least it can explain itself.

Nathan:
Alas stick to science but no Christmas presents of Easter eggs for you

Jack:
What? Christmas and Easter isn't restricted to Christianity, ya know

Nathan:
I know I was just being a prick xD, but its what it represents thats all xD

Jack:
I think the real question is "what tangible evidence is there that points towards an all- knowing, all loving, all-powerful god?"
Because, you see, there is a lot of evidence that points towards Big Bang, Abiogenesis, and the deterministic universe we live in.
Sadly, I have seen little to no strong and solid evidence to point towards the contrary (AKA Creationism), and therefore, logically, it is stupid to assume Creationism is the truth. Therefore, I MUST side with the other option.
It's that simple.

Jack:
Hey GG, does this ring a bell?
"Let's take two opposing view points.
Man on the street: 'The world is going to end in 2012 by meteor!'
Prof. on astronomy: 'There is no reason to assume the world will be destroyed by a meteor in 2012'
Instantly I stop and look at both sides.
I ask the first man for evidence, he says: 'because the mayan calendar ends in 2012'
I reply, 'yes, but that is their belief, or rather, conclusion. It does not support your statement at all. Where are your reasons.'
He gets mad and says, 'oh, you're one of those people who need reasons and hard-evidence. You're just putting the blinders on.'
I get slightly offended and go to see the professor.
He tells me, 'there has been no sighting of any object large enough to wipe out the planet instantly on that specific date. Looking at the mass and speed required and the angle necessary, we have done long and arduous experiments - and we have thus found nothing. Therefore there is no reason to believe that a meteor, asteroid or otherwise will strike on that date. The methods we have used are far more advanced than the mayans and we can be quite assured that whatever they theorized is much more of a hypothesis if not simply a blind guess. You can see the results of our experiment here, and see the following people for confirmation and corroboration. While it is possible that a meteor will strike, it is much more likely to happen in the time before and the time after the assumed date. In fact, guessing the time and method of the Earth's demise is like guessing the exact location and time of the first raindrop in the sahara desert. Such an assumption has no scientific or mathematical significance, it is simply the interpretation of texts written long before the advancement of human skepticism and scientific method. It is therefore safe to assume that the earth will not be destroyed in 2012.'
Well who would you trust?
While religious it is nigh impossible to see just how ridiculous a religion is, but while religious it is still possible to observe the outstanding success of science - except when the point of discussion is science's obvious bias towards atheism, a bias that only theists are capable of noticing."

Me:
IF god is so powerful.
Can god create a problem he cant solve?
Can he make a boulder he cant lift?
Can he win at the game?
Can he make something new that he didn't know about?
Can God stop being God or stop existing?
Can he make another God? Can He give Godhood to a man, or angel?
Can god be evil?

Jack:
There's just too many ambiguities and paradoxes where God is concerned.

Emma:
Adam and Eve has a belly button in art work. Which means....God has a uterus of some sort?

Me:
Have you ever noticed that they also look exactly like us humans of todays world.. im sure that we didnt look like this thousands of years ago... we allready have proof that we have changed over the years.. so does this mean god is a ape?? i mean we "were" made in his image.. and we WERE apes at some point... or maybe he is a single cell... so why say that adem and eve were made in gods image and that they aparently look like what we do today.. if they want to tell the story right it should be more along the lines of... Adem and eve were bothe monkeis in the garden of eden, god told them to eat the fruit. problem is although they looked like him their pre-human brain didnt fully understand and their ape instints kicked in and the eat it because they were hungry and knew no better..
I like the idea if picturing adem and eve as apes looks better :P

Emma:
And there is all sorts of art work of adam and eve....but they were apparently the first two humans so how did people ever paint them or even know they existed?!

Me:
Also.. we say they were called Adam and eve.. how do we know this.. im guessing that somehow they would of had to be able to speak in some way.. now are you seriously saying that two apes managed to come up with the first names Adan and eve, could say those names and passed their names on over the thousands of generations without it being said differently or forgotten V_V

Online Buying

Yeah thats the thoughts that ran through my head when I realised what the hell I had done.

Decided it would be a cool idea to buy a few things online...
Awesome, thought, however the thing I was after you could only get from a few sites.
These sites are hidden and hard to find due to the nature of what they sell.. (nothing rude or illegal)

So there I was looking really bloody hard to find a site that sold a real copy of this product that I was after when I stumbled upon one that looked fine.
I had been checking it against fake sites and testing every page to see if it was ok or not and it seemed fine.

Decided to put in a order for this product with them so I should get it rather soon.
I was going through the order process and it all seemed to be going fine.

Got to the final page where you click Pay now, clicked it, payment went through.. I had used pay pal too so I thought I had nothing to worry about.

A day or so later and I hadn't received my tracking number like I was told I should of.
Seemed odd, so I emailed them.
Needless to say there was no reply...

2 days passed with no reply so at this point I began to worry.
I decided to google the company only to find words like SCAM and FAKE all over the main search pages.

Panic!

So what could I do.. It was my own fault, I shouldn't of rushed it and should of been more careful... but with this product being so rare it was looking so good.
I emailed them again, this time marking it as urgent and with the subject [Issue] with order.

Needless to say that after my polite email I wondered if I was just wasting my time.
Slightly worried by now that it was fake I decided to hunt again.

This time I took my time and found a site that was trusted and funny enough cheaper ¬_¬

I placed a order for the product as I was sure that I had been scammed on the other site.
I thought "Oh never mind its only £12 ish and I can contact PayPal and get it sorted if need be"

So everything seemed to be going fine other than my stupid move of buying the product on a dodgy site.

But then something amazing happened...
I got a email...
They had received my product..
I should receive a email with a tracking number shortly...

And before you knew it *BING* one tracking number email...

What a fucker..
Not only did I place another order on a trusted site but the dodgy site seems to be fine V_V
Typical..


So.
I now have two of the product on its way and yet I only need one..
Sods law I suppose.
I guess internet buying isn't always that easy.


P.S. (Still not 100% sure I will receive the product from the dodgy site though as they might of just sent a email to shut me up.... I'll just have to wait and see.)

UPDATE: I did in fact get the product and it was good.. but I now have 2 and I only needed 1 :')

Giving advice to people

Sometimes it seems like all your friends could use a helping hand with problems they face along their way.

Thing is it seems that no matter how right or wrong you may be they will always go with their opinion over yours.

It seems strange.
You have some people that have problems and don't ask for any help from people.
These people generally are grateful for any help that they do receive and would bend over backwards to help you even if you don't ask for help, and then you seem to have the stupid ones that ask for help but don't seem to want it in the first place.

Where is the logic in that?


For a start, it doesn't matter if the person giving help is right or wrong you should still allow them to have their say and use that information they give you to come out with a better solution and answer that the one you had without their input, and secondly, why bother asking for a opinion if you're not going to take it in and use it to better your outcome.

I now believe that 90% of people fail at solving problems because they don't seem to listen to the many sides of the dice, and would rather go with the first off guess they made whether right or wrong.

This has however helped me to realise that I should respect everyone's opinion and take heed in what they have to say as they may have a valid point.

#Remember#

All thoughts expressed here are just thoughts and not the actions of a mad man

That one someone..

Hello there my fellow blog readers.

Isn't it funny how someone has the power to make you feel over the moon and so good about yourself even when you're feeling at your lowest point, yet they also have the power to worry the crap out of you.

Lately things between me and my girl Chloe have been going great.
A few things suck, like the fact that I have to work night shifts and so I sleep during the day. It causes me to hardly see her and when I do see her I'm usually sleepy or rushing to get ready for work.
Then with my money issues being so bad lately I also haven't been able to treat her like I would like to, and yet she still puts up with me ^_^

Things between us mentally though are fantastic.
She really is one in "N".

Yeah that's right I said N... I was tempted to say 1 in a million, however just the thought of it being such a common phrase put me off saying (Typing) it.
My next thought was to say a much larger number to try and express how much she truly means to me.
Problem there is if I said "Shes 1 in a 10,000,000" I would be too tempted to add another 0 on the end to again try and show that she really means that much.
Eventually I would end up with a page covered in 0's.
So to simplify things I used the term N where you then insert the biggest number you can think of ^_^

Anyway... :P
Me and her have grown so close over the past few months that I couldn't ask for anything more.
Sure work gets to me and I get stressed about silly things, however when ever she turns up to see me everything vanishes from my mind and the only thing that does seem to exist inside it is "OMG shes here!... YAY!"

I have never met someone that has had this much of a positive effect on me before and its amazing..

However as you may remember... "someone has the power to make you feel over the moon and so good about yourself even when you're feeling at your lowest point, yet they also have the power to worry the crap out of you"

As much as I know its far from likely to happen, I worry more than anything else that I'll lose her.
Its daft I know. V_V

Problem is, it's one of those things where it seems too good to be true, and with my mind working the way it does I wonder if its all just a huge joke, maybe I'm on the truman show but I'm the main character, maybe one day she will realise I'm a complete loon and won't be able to stand me.

Either way it worries the crap out of me to a stupid extent.

I don't think its possible to ever lose this feeling for as long as you love someone this much.
For the rest of my relationship with her I will be over the moon that I'm with someone so amazing, but I would also be distraught if I was to ever lose her and so the thought will never leave me..

Kind of ironic to be fair.
But its comments like this from her that make that feeling slowly sink back to the depths of my mind again allowing me to realise that, for now at least there is no way I will lose her.

"I don't care how much you 'ramble', I don't care how much things are getting you down or how much you ever feel like just giving up, I won't let you & I'll always believe in you.
Know that, even if I can't stay the night or even see you in the day, you're always on my mind & always in my prayers.
I love you.
♥"

^_^ well I'll end this ramble for now.
Thanks again for reading.

Pre Warning Seems Only Fair...

Hello again everyone.

I stated that I would like to use this blog as a way for people to understand me better ,and I will most likely let it become the bridge from what you think im thinking, and what im actually thinking.
Feel free to use this bridge to cross over into the strange mind of Musical-Phoenix/Genuine Guardian, however I thought it only wise that I gave you all a word of warning first.

Many things that go through my head are so spontaneous and random that they have no meaning whatsoever. The only reason these pointless thoughts pass through my mind is so that I don't find myself sitting there not thinking about anything.


I like the term "I think therefore I am"... Its quite clever.
In my case, if I was to stop thinking about random things for even a minute or so and my mind was to become blank, I would feel uneasy at the fact that I currently have nothing in my mind.
However this then would make me chuckle as I realise that I have just thought about how odd it was that I had nothing in my mind and thus created a thought.
Therefore I exist.

Anyway... Getting back on topic.

Like I say many of my thoughts have no reason for being there they are just seem to exist to fill up my mind.
But I do however have many thoughts about the situations I'm in and the things I see.
These thoughts will most likely be expressed in my blog, and that's when it occurred to me.

What if people get offended by the thoughts in my head??!?

Well its safe to say a few people will most likely be offended, angry, worried or may even feel some form of hate towards one or more of my posts.
However I am going to make sure that every post I do from now onwards will warn you that you may not like what you read, however it is what's currently floating about in the vast emptiness of my mind, and that I can't help how I think.
It's just how I am.
Just as you all have many thoughts you know would upset others if they heard them, and so therefore keep them to yourself.


So to sum this post up...

You have been warned that you are about to enter my mind and anything you may feel while reading these posts are irrelevant.
I will still be the same person after you read a post however you will most likely see how I came to react to the situations like I have done ^_^

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Why create a Blog?!?

This is my first post and so it seemed fitting to be a introduction as to why I would want to blog in the first place.

This blog is an archive if you will, of the many things that have happened to me, the thoughts I have had and experiences in life... that along with random crap that I find entertaining, useful or just plain cool.

Now I'd like to warn you that these posts vairy from amusing to seriously depressed at times.
You don't have to read anything you don't want to. Feel free to skip posts for whatever reason.
You are under no obligation to stay and listen.
It's all up to you.

Here is a quick sample of some of the things I post about.
Not all are of this quality, but it should give you an idea.

It has recently come to my attention that a lot of things have been building up inside me and confusing me to the point of self doubt.

Some of which being relationships, and peoples abilities to think about why we are here and what's the point in some things even existing altogether.

I thought I had most of my questions answered and yet each day I seem to face a new puzzle that for some reason I am unable to solve.

Now I am quite a logical person so when something happens I always seem to think about why, what, how, when and the worst of all "IF".

For example...
A man walks into a bar...
Now a lot of you are thinking.. oh... he's going to make some stupid lame joke, however like I said I don't think that way.

I read the words "A man walks into a bar..." and I wonder all sorts of things for example..

• Why did he walk into the bar? 
• Was he meeting someone for drinks? 
• Does he work there?
• Is it something he does on a regular occasion?
• Has he ever been there before?
• What made him choose a bar of all places?
• Is the bar a quiet bar or a aggressive bar?

Not the usual questions that spring to someone's mind.
Now with me thinking so... well... littoral I guess, It causes me to (over) analyse everything people do, say and think, and then I try and find a cause of said action, the effect, and the next step they will take.

This has caused me to think about way too many problems and issues that aren't even mine. Causing me to become ever more confused by why people are so oblivious to their actions.
I am hoping that by creating this blog I can get some of my thoughts out on to "Paper" if you will, and see what others opinions are.

Failing that it still allows me to vent through the expression or words and not gives me something to look back on at a later date.

More than likely the latter of the two.
I also hope that this will allow you all (who are interested) to understand how I work and why I do the things I do giving you a better understanding of how my mind works.

Thank you for reading and keep your eye out for my next post.

So yeah, thats the kind of things you may stumble across in this blog.

Hopefully you enjoy browsing about.

Jay :D